Putting The Pencil Down

Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:16

 God saw you before you were formed, He wrote your life in His book. We know the nature of God and we know that He does things right. There is a certain comfort in letting God handle the details of our life. There is something even more comforting in knowing that those details were hand written by God before we came into existence.

You love God, you trust God. Are you loving and trusting Him enough to live the story He has already written for you? Or are you editing, erasing and rewriting your story?

God sees in you what no one else does, He understands you as no one else does. He knows every single fear, every single like and dislike. Of course He is capable of writing our life story, He personally created the main character (you), but more than that, the main character is His child.

His beloved child.

It is the times that we forget we aren’t the authors of our own stories and we grab the pencil from God’s hands, that’s when we get into trouble. We let pride, fear, insecurity, the need to control and a million other things get in our way and we face the world and defiantly shout- I am the master of my fate! We want to know how our story ends and every single road we are going to take to get to our destination. We are most tempted to do this when the story God wrote for us isn’t going the way we want it to and we think we could do it better. So we take the pencil and we erase, omit and embellish what we don’t like and start writing our own story.

Or maybe we grow antsy when others don’t like the narrative that God has written and we are living and they are vocal about it. We often let others in our lives have the pencil and let them re-write God’s story for us This is spiritually and emotionally exhausting.

 When it comes to what others think of our life story, let them think and say what they want, as long as we are sitting back and letting God not only write our story but letting the story play out according to His plan, they can think what they want. We know the author, we love the author and He loves us.

When God writes our story we can cease striving and enjoy peace, rest, contentment. So put the pencil down or better yet, hand it back to God in a personal and humble way and watch as He pens a best seller.


……………and so I ride

Am I Enough? 

Am I Enough?

One of these days my life will be perfect. I will be rich enough, energetic enough, thin enough. If I were just a little bit “more” life would be great. There are days that I feel every finger is pointed at me, every wrong is blamed on me and every laugh is directed at me. Not wanted, undesirable, unaccepted, unworthy.

I am not “enough”.

How does one start being “enough”?

 Does being “enough” mean that you have worked more, exercised and dieted more, collected more possessions to earn your way to the title of “enough”?

Is there a goal you could set for yourself that when achieved would truly convince you that you were “enough”?

There is nothing that can give you the feeling of being “enough” on this earth.

That is something that only God can give you.

Remember who You are in Christ, He makes it quite clear…..YOU ARE ENOUGH.

Being “enough” is not something you can buy or work overtime to earn. You are a child of God, simply for that reason, YOU ARE ENOUGH.

“There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Rom. 8:1

“Not Guilty, you are now free to live as the person God created you to be!

“To the praise of His glorious grace, which He has freely given us in the one He loves” Eph 1:6

God has accepted us, unconditionally, wholly and completely now that we belong to His son.

And finally, who are we to argue with what God says about you, His creation?

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:14

 “So God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female, He created them.” Genesis 1:27

God respects and loves us. He made us fearfully and wonderfully. We are reflections of God’s glory. We can reflect His character in all we do.

You are “enough” because you were created in God’s image, not because of anything you own, anything you have done, and certainly not because of your physical appearance.

As long as you believe what God says is true, no one will be able to convince you ever again, that you are not enough.

You are “enough” , quit living your life making up for the feeling that you are not .

Quit the exhaustive and obsessive self improvement projects. Quit trying harder than comes naturally to you, quit exhausting yourself in your pursuit of “enough”.

Your life holds meaning because God loves you and you are His child. He created you to be more than “enough”.

God created you for victory.

Are you living in victory?


……………and so I ride

Into The Deep

Luke 5:4 “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.”

Peter had been fishing all night and didn’t catch any fish. Yet when Jesus climbed into Peter’s boat and asked Him to “Put out into deep water” he did so because it was Jesus who asked.

His obedience was rewarded with so many fish that their nets were bursting.

The thing I am thinking about this morning is the part of the scripture that says “put out into deep water.”

We all seek the fulfillment, freedom and blessings that God offers us, yet we don’t venture into the deep water. It’s a scary place.

 Most times it is hard to get off our beach towel let alone venture into the water.


I think it is safe to say that we won’t find true fulfillment, freedom and blessings from God in the shallow end of the pool. You know the end that we prefer to stay in. The things we seek and long for from God aren’t found in the shallow water.

We cling to the safety of the shore, we dwell in the familiar and comfortable. We hold fast to that which we have always known, the old ways and old life. It feels safe and comfortable.

If we never venture to the deep waters of God, the shallow of God is all we will ever become acquainted with.

We believe, but we believe only in the shallow end of the pool of faith. We splash about in the shallows with our prayer life and our Bible reading. We may feel we are called to dive into the deep end of the pool but somehow never dig up the courage to dive in. The same can be said of experiencing the amazing love God has for us. We might wrap it around us as a warm cloak but we don’t let it sink into the very depth of our heart.

We have to leave the shallow end of the pool if we want to experience all that God has for us. Heck, we need to do more than wade gingerly into knee deep water, we need to launch our boats “into the deep” waters of faith, hope and love. Steer your course from your heart to His heart.

That is where you will find the blessings that God has promised you, in the deep.


…………and so I ride

Living a Lie- Core Fears

We all have core fears that we operate day to day on. Say your core fear is abandonment, or loss of security, or any one of a hundred fears, that drives how you see the world and how you react to most things.

There are lots of ways this plays out, if something is said to you or someone doesn’t respond to a text or call. It could be any one of many situational happenings. Your core fear will determine how you react.

Let’s say that a text of phone call isn’t responded to and in the snap of a finger your core fear starts coloring how you react. For me, a feeling starts in my stomach that feels like I swallowed a burning spider. Before long that spider is spitting out burning spider webs in a million different directions.

If your core fear is abandonment (or whatever) the thoughts could go like this. My spouse will leave me, my friends will disappear, I will be left alone to care for myself, my retirement home will be the homeless shelter. You get my drift, one thing leads to another and before you know it your burning spider is taking a blow torch to your stomach.

All because you believe lies that Satan is really good at nurturing and growing. I am willing to bet there are some mighty lies living inside you and coloring your world. Satan is good at mighty lies.

So back to the not responded to text or phone calls (for example). The doubts and questions slowly start creeping in, at first, they are only smoldering but soon they burst into full flame propelling me to take action, any action to put out the fire in my gut because it is burning and it hurts. Those actions might include any number of harsh or stupid unproductive things, but boy do they feel productive at the time.

Up to this point the action I took usually did not include God…..and I wonder……..was that by chance, or by choice? Have I self sabotaged? Have I created an environment for my insecurities to be kept alive? Quite possibly.

There is work to do.

There are scripture that completely drown the thought that any one earthly person could take your security. I tried to find the “drown the burning spider” scripture but there are none.

It is all about believing from the same place that the spider is stirring up trouble, that what God says, God will do. Move that information to your heart.

Romans 8:38-39New International Version (NIV)

38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

This verse is very significant and can douse your burning spider. If this verse does not convince you that God will be there, nothing will. What an amazing feeling it is to read that and choose to just rest there. This is a comforting promise that says that no matter how you fear abandonment from those who occupy this earth with you and who may or may not walk away (they do have free choice) that it is impossible to be separated from our Lord.

Oh our God, your God and my God, is a good God. We don’t have to convince God to love us, He already does. It is His nature and His heart to join His life to ours and be one with us and us with Him. That means all of what we are, even the dark, burning spider side. That is something you can grab hold onto for dear life.

The rest will come.


………..and so I ride

The Love of a Child

She looked up at me with complete trust, this brand new little granddaughter I held in my arms. I knew then and there that it would be a life long love affair.

When she gazes up at me I can see complete faith in her that I will take care of her every need. She does not stress over it, she just knows.

This little girl soaks in the unconditional love that comes to her.

 She takes it without reservation and she closes her eyes and simply rests there.

She cannot yet understand what I say and she cannot yet see me clearly, but she knows nonetheless.

This is the kind of love that we often think we cannot possibly receive as adults. It is reserved for others.

Yet when we turn to Christ, He offers us that. As much as I love this little grand-daughter, the love I can give her does not hold a candle to the love Christ Jesus offers me. He takes me just as I am and He loves me. He offers me unconditional love that I can get no where else.

If only I had the same kind of faith of this child I hold in my arms. The kind of faith that says, I know you will take care of my every need Father, I will let you.

If only I had the same kind of faith that says I accept without reservation the unconditional love you offer me Father. I will receive it and rest in it fully.

The funny thing is, my Father knows my shortcomings and my fears and He loves me anyway.

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14

An informational Revelation

Spring housecleaning is a chore. Especially when you get to the spare bedroom where all the how to books, self help and DIY manuals, magazines, extra Bibles and CD’s live. Oh my what a wealth of information we have at our fingertips. It is everywhere, in any form imaginable.

Yet we still live in houses that need repair, we are still overweight, our cars still break down and we financially live from paycheck to paycheck and we try to fill the space God wants to inhabit with a million other things.

 Information might be plentiful but its pretty useless without revelation.

I heard that phrase the other day, information without revelation is meaningless. I love that phrase, it is true. Read all the information you want but unless God reveals something to you about that information that you did not understand before, it is information that you never put to use.

Knowledge from the information you read isn’t understanding just because you read it, it is understanding when you obey it. This is where it gets a little uncomfortable. Lots of people read the Bible, to lots of people it is just information that sits on a shelf.

 I love how Ephesians 1:17 slips so perfectly in here. “ I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation so that you may know Him better.”

A revelation is when God’s word becomes your reality, it is a willingness to trust and to obey. Only God’s word mixed with faith will get you to revelation. That is the point where all the information you ingest will become meaningful and not just words printed on a page.

Father, I pray that you will give me the Spirit of wisdom and revelation to know you better.


………..and so I ride

Lightness or darkness

Just a little something to think about.It is a little bit like the old chicken and egg question.

My husband and I do a devotional every morning and the subject of which came first, day or night was brought up. I have been thinking about this and doing some research for about two weeks now and it is intriguing to me. In the end however, the answer was glowingly clear.

In the world we live in it is generally understood that night comes after the day is over. We work all day, relax and unwind when the day is over and night is finally here. We go to bed and get up and start a new day. In the world we live in the end of day is the start of night.

Even in the natural order of the world light goes to darkness. Everything goes from light to dark, day goes into night, youth to aging, strength to weakness and life to death. That is the way of the world. When you think about it, there isn’t much room for hope in that is there?

It is the way of the world but I have come to agree with the author of the devotional, it is not the way of God.

Genesis 1:1-5says that “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, DARKNESS was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. And God said, let there be light, and there was light. God saw that the light was good and He separated the light from the darkness. God called the light day and the darkness He called night. And there was evening, and there was morning, the first day.

Notice the following, “now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep. And Genesis 1:5b says “and there was evening, and there was morning……

Every biblical day begins at sunset, there is evening and there is morning. There is darkness followed by light.

Why is that significant as Christians? Because we have each lived in darkness but were brought to the light by Christ. We walk from the darkness into the light, we move from weakness to strength. We exchange despair for hope, we replace tears with joy. We walk from death to life, not vise versa!

Our entire lives should evolve around walking away from the darkness that once exemplified all that we were and walking into the brilliant light of Christ.


…………..and so I ride