I hate myself when I open the checkbook and there is no money left even though I was paid only two days ago. I hate myself when I wake up in the morning with a hangover knowing full well that I had vowed it would never happen again. I hate who I see when I look in a full length mirror. I am overweight and I hate myself for letting it happen. I would like to take a sledge hammer to that mirror. You can fill in your blanks here because we all have things that we do that cause us to hate the very essence of who we believe we are.
1 Samuel 16:7 tells us The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
I think that it would do us some good to remember that God loves us for who we are not in spite of who we are. This is not a one shot deal, not something that is true when we are skinny and are eating right, when we haven’t spent money we shouldn’t have, when we didn’t overdo it at the party last night and when we are generally feeling giddy about ourselves and our life. This is who God is, He loves His children unconditionally at all times and in all circumstances.
Remember in Ephesians it says that He wants us to grasp just how wide, how long, how high and how deep His love for us is. He wants us to know that He loves us in a way that surpasses our knowledge.
Period, Bam, end of story.
So where does this self-loathing, come from?
I want you to read a definition of what self –loathing means and to help you (ok me) to understand just how big of a deal this is. Self-loathing is more than just feeling negative about yourself. To loath is to experience a strong dislike or disgust – an intense aversion and of and for one’s self.
To loath your “Self” is to hate yourself.
Is this ringing some bells yet? Who do you think grabs any foothold that He can see in our lives and takes residence? If you said Satan, you are right. If you are looking in the mirror and hating what you see, realize what you are seeing reflected back at you is a person that God created and loves with so much passion that we cannot begin to understand. Do you have any right to hate what God so lovingly and painstakingly created?
Unfortunately self-hate is very popular in our society but it is also very, very destructive spiritually. You think Satan doesn’t want us to hate ourselves, you are wrong. You are God’s artwork and of course Satan is going to go after you with all he has got.
Your entire quality of life is downgraded and Satan’s kingdom is strengthened when you fail to love yourself and when you fail to appreciate the person God so lovingly created.
Now does God want us to spend money recklessly, to drink or eat to a point called gluttony? No He certainly does not. There are many scriptures that tell us that. God wants us to develop skills (with His help) to control our habits and to live in a way that brings glory to Him.
But let’s take one step at a time and let’s start with learning to love ourselves as the children of God we are. I believe that only then can we bring the bad habits under control.
Start from a position of absolute knowledge that you are loved. Instead of looking in the mirror and being filled with shame, look at the person gazing back at you with the same love that God has for you. You will then be in a much stronger position to go forth and control those passions that make you do the very things that you vowed you would never do.
The road to a healthier lifestyle does not have to be a steep incline that is torture and bound to make you quit sooner rather than later. The road to a healthier life should start by looking in the mirror and saying “hello beautiful, let’s have a great God filled day, the rest will fall into place.
Christ made you a new creature and you are no longer in bondage to sin. CLAIM IT!